Down Down Waiting

Im having one of those downer days
nothing crazy or particular really
but I am over work
I have a great job
and I am very thankful
so for that I must give
many many thanks
and not jinx
but I just want more
need more
need to get away
need something new
someone new
life new
state new
existence new
experience new
place new
weather new
people new
im reading a book
which isnt half bad
but I read something yesterday
that really hit home
it was a section
that talked about
how some people
need a time
or period in their life
to do nothing
be nothing
and just live for a while
by doing that
you find yourself
you regain focus
you learn what you truly value
and truly need in life
you learn your goods
your bads
your lights
your darks
and I want that right now
I need that
so bad right now
I just have a lot on my mind
im not suicidal
or depressed by any means
im just misguided
kinda randomely spinning
into and corner the spiral throws me
and I want so much
i want to regain focus
prioritize
and be happy with the direction
I am going on
and I am not at the moment
but i cant go anywhere yet
not until I save
until I meet my goals
and until I can...
so until that day
im waiting
hoping...